| WHAT IF... What if true love left you? Not some ordinary high school romance, not some random jock boyfriend, not anyone at all replaceable. True love. The real deal. Your other half, your true soul's match. What happens if they leaves? its unfortunate to find "awkward" urls on the computer of someone who denies them outright.... but i know how that goes i suppose. i miss you both. all three of you actually.... thats what ill be in your life, an ellipsis, a ghost... ... |
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| apparently i lost 2 friends last week. well not lost, they kinda dumped me i didnt know i could get dumped by friends. i think that i retired the scarf for good... awesome gift, but i dont think it was intended for me. -Mud |
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| as requested, i am making the famous sister jess marie cookies right now.
it is not the same. i need the baking buddy.
what the heck, what am i gonna do when keith goes back...?
i lost an American Sign Language book.... haha
he has a name! its mr. bear. at least i had some sort of impact.
i almost broke down and called and sent a text. i evidently did remember the number after all.
my back and heart still hurt. i cant sleep and when i do nod off its only nightmares.
Paul
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| i'm still hurting. i dont know. im confused. and i hurt. this sucks. grr
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| i hurt all over.
i fell out of a chair when i was chatting with _ _ _
so in addition to my heart aching with the loss of a dear friend, my back has been killing me (not to mention i only slept for 4 hours on the hardwood floor... it was a late night)
SPANGLISH- Watch it, you know who you are.
Pantene Pro-V Pink Bottle... HA
Question posed to me recently: "How are you still single?"
my answer was "I LOOK LIKE A HOMELESS MAN"
that chair was obliterated, sorry Giant Eagle
I cried a good portion of the workday and after a panic attack last night that made me almost crash my car, i realized i need to stay busy.... The 'delicious' irony of this all is that the only friend that i had in my life that would let me talk and actually listen to me and not completely disregard my feelings is no longer an option to talk to. She would remember things i said and give me affirmation, without lying too.
Dont give up on yourself. you are so much more amazing than you realize, its really a shame that you are doing it alone. i will use the _ _ _ _ _ and remember that i had a friend who loved me and it will still be a reminder that God loves me too. if you ever need anything, feel free to call text write or visit. 814 4126
its bullshh that you are sucking it up and hurting yourself rather than being vocal.
i miss you and it has been less than 24 hours. i dont think i am strong enough for this.
Michael W Smith, "Friends are Friends Forever" the song i need to keep in my heart.
a very broken and disillusioned PaulJ
- Guys, step up and be the men that women expect and deserve us to be- Paul
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